I'm A Sober Little Bitch

I began this journey with one goal in mind: to look like a Greek god by summer. It seemed like the perfect plan—by May, my hair plugs would be fully grown in, the sun would be shining, pools would be open, and my abs would be on full display. Everything lined up perfectly. However, as I’ve progressed, I’ve realized that the most profound benefit of 75 Hard isn’t about the physical transformation. The real reward lies in the mental clarity and discipline that come from fully committing to the process.

I’m only 15 days in, and I’m not going to pretend that my life has completely changed or that I’ve unlocked the secrets to existence. But I can tell you this: I feel incredible. I’m documenting my journey on social media not for the likes, views, or engagement, but for myself—and for anyone out there who feels stuck and knows deep down they need to change.

It’s ironic, really. When I was promoting a lifestyle of partying, drugs, and reckless indulgence, social media seemed to embrace me. But the moment I decided to take a hard look at who I was, acknowledge my unhappiness, and make a change, the backlash was immediate. Suddenly, the comments rolled in: “No one cares,” or worse, “Stop being gay.”

Thankfully, I’ve spent enough time in this space to let that negativity roll off me. My focus is on the messages from those who say I’ve inspired them to make changes in their own lives. That’s what keeps me going. I’m no philosopher or self-help guru, but over these 15 days, I’ve learned a few things worth sharing.

1. Mental Clarity

By far, the greatest benefit of 75 Hard has been the mental clarity. Waking up every single day without the weight of hangxiety or lingering self-doubt has been life-changing. That doesn’t mean I’ve “cured mental health,” as some sarcastic Twitter replies would suggest. What it does mean is that I’m better equipped to process and control my emotions. It’s a night and day difference compared to the days when I’d be drinking and doing drugs until 4 a.m., running away from my problems instead of facing them head-on.

2. Gratitude

Maybe it’s 75 Hard, or maybe I’m just getting older, but I’ve found myself feeling more grateful for the little things in life. My family, my job, the roof over my head, the food in my stomach—these simple blessings have taken on a new significance. When you start recognizing and appreciating these small joys, each day gets a little brighter. Of course, life can throw curveballs, and one phone call could change everything. But for now, this shift in perspective has made a world of difference.

3. I Don’t Need Booze to Be Me

When I started this challenge, people would ask, “What are you going to do on the weekends?” as if sobriety meant locking myself away and wallowing in misery. They couldn’t have been more wrong. Over the past two weekends, I’ve gone out completely sober and had the time of my life. The biggest revelation? My confidence doesn’t come from alcohol—it’s been within me all along. I don’t need booze to let the beast out of the cage.

This experience has already taught me so much, and I’m still just getting started. For anyone considering 75 Hard or any other challenge of self-discipline, my advice is simple: don’t let the noise get to you. Focus on the positives, embrace the growth, and know that you’re capable of more than you think.