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Amanda Bynes Is Breaking The Internet

Paper-… As time went on, however, her youthful experimentation with marijuana evolved into trying other, harder recreational drugs. “Later on it progressed to doing molly and ecstasy,” she says matter-of-factly. “[I tried] cocaine three times but I never got high from cocaine. I never liked it. It was never my drug of choice.” One drug she admits she started taking on a regular basis, however, was Adderall. “I definitely abused Adderall,” she says.

After retiring from acting, Bynes found herself feeling adrift, having quit what had been basically, up until this point, a lifelong pursuit. “I just had no purpose in life. I’d been working my whole life and [now] I was doing nothing.” She continues, “I had a lot of time on my hands and I would ‘wake and bake’ and literally be stoned all day long.”

Around this time, Bynes said she started “hanging out with a seedier crowd and I isolated a lot… I got really into my drug usage and it became a really dark, sad world for me.” She sums up her life back then as one in which she “was just stuck at home, getting high, watching TV and tweeting.”

Amanda Bynes is BACK. She is on the cover of the December issue of Paper Magazine, talking about her career and where things went wrong. To summarize the profile…it was drugs. She started smoking weed when she was 16…later mixing in molly and ecstasy…and abusing Adderall. She said drugs turned her into a completely different person. She didn’t really touch on the insane tweets (Drake, her parents, etc.) but she is very remorseful for her actions during that time.

“I’m really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back time but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad,” Bynes says. “Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter.” But, she adds, “it’s definitely not Twitter’s fault — it’s my own fault.”

Ah Twitter, a blessing and a curse.

Amanda also talked about the last few movies she did…basically saying she hated her performance and how she looked. That combined with the drug use led to her “retiring” from acting.

She’s the Man, a modern update on Shakespeare’s Twelfth Night that saw Bynes play a teen girl dressing in drag to pose as her brother, led to, in Bynes’ words, “an interesting experience” after it wrapped. “When the movie came out and I saw it,” she says, “I went into a deep depression for 4-6 months because I didn’t like how I looked when I was a boy.” She paused. “I’ve never told anyone that.” Seeing herself with short hair and sideburns was “a super strange and out-of-body experience. It just really put me into a funk.”

This makes me so sad. Everyone loves She’s the Man. It’s a classic. However, Amanda struggled with that role for a long time. She has clearly been so in her head and so critical of herself that eventually disaster struck. BUT! It seems like she has got her act together these days! She is a student at FIDM in Los Angeles, her teachers love her, she’s been sober for almost four years, and she does see a future return to acting.

I only want good things for Amanda Bynes. She looks great and she has cleaned up her act. I am SO ready for the comeback.

P.S. Amanda also discusses pushing producers to choose Channing Tatum to star along side her. They thought he was too old, but she fought for him. Thank you for that Amanda.